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Nov. 6th, 2015 07:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
miss_lucy21And back to the PDoc today. We decided to stay with the 4mg of the Intuniv, because before I got sick, I was kind of feeling like it might be working. So, I'm going to stay at this dose until January, so I have some real time to evaluate (I am bad at noticing things, so it's been difficult for me to really judge things when I only have a month- or really 2 weeks, because we were still getting to the higher dose). And since I'm staying at a consistent dose for awhile, she was able to give me 4mg tablets instead of me taking four 1mg tablets. I am glad about that, because my evening handful of pills was getting a little ridiculous.
Also, she wrote me new scripts for the Prozac and the Wellbutrin, and I discovered that 40mg capsules of the Prozac is something that exists. I've been taking two 20mg caps for close to three years now. Apparently, my GP never thought to write the script for 40mg when I started taking that dose on a regular basis. So that's also one less pill in my morning handful (which is considerably smaller- it's just the antidepressants, vitamin D, omega 3s and cranberry. Most of my meds are either better tolerated in the evening or specifically prescribed as evening pills).
So, this is going reasonably well. She did keep asking me if I'd done anything fun in the past couple of weeks or if I had fun things planned coming up, and I was like, "....no?" I mean, yes, I anticipate doing things I consider fun in the near future, but they're the sort of thing that if I describe it to someone else, they will completely not understand how I can find that fun. Like, I discovered Kindle singles this week, so I've been downloading as many singles of books on my giant to-read list as I can and I'm blitzing through them to determine whether I actually want to read that book. If I don't, it comes off the list. If I do, and it's written by a woman, it's going on the 2016 reading list, because I'm planning to only read books written by women next year. Otherwise, it's going in a different folder for future planning. I am greatly enjoying doing this. Telling my PDoc that this is what I do for fun is likely to make me sound like a less socially adjusted person than I actually am, which is maybe not the impression I would want her to have. There seems to be some psychological training that says doing activities by yourself most of the time is non-ideal at best. It doesn't bother me any to do things by myself- I prefer it, a lot of the time- but apparently, it is non-standard and therefore, possibly Not Good. It's not like I'm incapable of creating or sustaining relationships of various sorts with other people. I am and I do. I just value my alone time equally highly as I value my time with other people.
Also, she wrote me new scripts for the Prozac and the Wellbutrin, and I discovered that 40mg capsules of the Prozac is something that exists. I've been taking two 20mg caps for close to three years now. Apparently, my GP never thought to write the script for 40mg when I started taking that dose on a regular basis. So that's also one less pill in my morning handful (which is considerably smaller- it's just the antidepressants, vitamin D, omega 3s and cranberry. Most of my meds are either better tolerated in the evening or specifically prescribed as evening pills).
So, this is going reasonably well. She did keep asking me if I'd done anything fun in the past couple of weeks or if I had fun things planned coming up, and I was like, "....no?" I mean, yes, I anticipate doing things I consider fun in the near future, but they're the sort of thing that if I describe it to someone else, they will completely not understand how I can find that fun. Like, I discovered Kindle singles this week, so I've been downloading as many singles of books on my giant to-read list as I can and I'm blitzing through them to determine whether I actually want to read that book. If I don't, it comes off the list. If I do, and it's written by a woman, it's going on the 2016 reading list, because I'm planning to only read books written by women next year. Otherwise, it's going in a different folder for future planning. I am greatly enjoying doing this. Telling my PDoc that this is what I do for fun is likely to make me sound like a less socially adjusted person than I actually am, which is maybe not the impression I would want her to have. There seems to be some psychological training that says doing activities by yourself most of the time is non-ideal at best. It doesn't bother me any to do things by myself- I prefer it, a lot of the time- but apparently, it is non-standard and therefore, possibly Not Good. It's not like I'm incapable of creating or sustaining relationships of various sorts with other people. I am and I do. I just value my alone time equally highly as I value my time with other people.