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miss_lucy21And frustrated. Mostly with myself, because I did some things this week that I should really know better than to do. Like read a bunch of things about rape culture and misogyny. And I didn't do some things that I really had ought to have done. Like, *stop* reading things that were upsetting, for one. And pay bills and look for a job, etc, for another.
Part of this is summer malaise- it's hot, I get antsy when the back to school commercials start up when I'm *not* going back to school (seriously. I miss school. So much). Part of it is feeling like everything is on hold and has been on hold for 14 months now. I am in limbo. I am tired of limbo. I do not do limbo gracefully. I have very little control over the job situation- I apply, and then it's out of my hands until the interview and then it's out of my hands until their decision. I really don't like not having control over things.
So, this week, I'm going to try something. I am going to try getting up and doing yoga first thing when I get up. I don't think this is going to actually do anything on the job front- I'm not much into the mysticism of that sort of thing- but, I might *feel* better. Even though I kind of don't like actually doing yoga. I like the *idea* of it, but the actual doing of it...well, I'm horribly uncoordinated and inflexible. But even though I kind of don't like it, I usually like having done it, if it makes any sense. And everything I read keeps saying that "your brain will be better if you deal with your body", so let's see if that works. And even if it doesn't, it's hard to say that doing yoga would be *bad* for me, right?
Part of this is summer malaise- it's hot, I get antsy when the back to school commercials start up when I'm *not* going back to school (seriously. I miss school. So much). Part of it is feeling like everything is on hold and has been on hold for 14 months now. I am in limbo. I am tired of limbo. I do not do limbo gracefully. I have very little control over the job situation- I apply, and then it's out of my hands until the interview and then it's out of my hands until their decision. I really don't like not having control over things.
So, this week, I'm going to try something. I am going to try getting up and doing yoga first thing when I get up. I don't think this is going to actually do anything on the job front- I'm not much into the mysticism of that sort of thing- but, I might *feel* better. Even though I kind of don't like actually doing yoga. I like the *idea* of it, but the actual doing of it...well, I'm horribly uncoordinated and inflexible. But even though I kind of don't like it, I usually like having done it, if it makes any sense. And everything I read keeps saying that "your brain will be better if you deal with your body", so let's see if that works. And even if it doesn't, it's hard to say that doing yoga would be *bad* for me, right?