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Aug. 16th, 2014 08:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
miss_lucy21I went to the bathroom yesterday and absentmindedly pulled my pants down without unbuttoning them. I don't even know what I was thinking- I was at work, and all my work pants have waists with buttons and zippers- but they slid right down my hips. Now, granted, these were the size 22s that were baggy in the spring (although I definitely still needed to unbutton and unzip them to remove them) but I also noticed this week that one of my dresses is definitely longer than it was last fall (the one that's actually a size smaller than my other dresses) and another pair of pants that are a size 20 are definitely getting baggy (but another pair in the same size is not so baggy. Loose in the waist- almost all my pants are, given the 10 inch difference between my waist and hips- but there's still definition in the rear).
I understand most people would be really happy about this. I'm not displeased by it, exactly, but I'm not terribly excited about it either. For one thing, pants are freaking expensive and I hate shopping for them (finding size 20 is easier than size 22, but it's still a challenge and the selection is really limited and I am shaped weird for all that I'm mostly hourglass shaped and finding pants that have the right rise is just hard). For another, this is not my first rodeo and I have no expectation that I'll stay whatever size I am. It's equally likely I'll be needing the size 22 pants again in 6 months. And with me, weight loss is usually followed by gaining it back and more, and even though I mostly don't care what size I am, there's still part of me that gets down on myself when I gain weight.
I am slightly amused though- I'm eating about 400-500 more calories per day on average than I was this spring, and I've been sporadic about working out the past few weeks because I was sick/ouchy, I'm apparently shrinking even so. Who the hell eats more calories and loses weight? Me, apparently. Swear I'm a mutant.
I understand most people would be really happy about this. I'm not displeased by it, exactly, but I'm not terribly excited about it either. For one thing, pants are freaking expensive and I hate shopping for them (finding size 20 is easier than size 22, but it's still a challenge and the selection is really limited and I am shaped weird for all that I'm mostly hourglass shaped and finding pants that have the right rise is just hard). For another, this is not my first rodeo and I have no expectation that I'll stay whatever size I am. It's equally likely I'll be needing the size 22 pants again in 6 months. And with me, weight loss is usually followed by gaining it back and more, and even though I mostly don't care what size I am, there's still part of me that gets down on myself when I gain weight.
I am slightly amused though- I'm eating about 400-500 more calories per day on average than I was this spring, and I've been sporadic about working out the past few weeks because I was sick/ouchy, I'm apparently shrinking even so. Who the hell eats more calories and loses weight? Me, apparently. Swear I'm a mutant.